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[22 Jun 2003|10:29am] |
what did Shannon and Russ do last night?
Russ rocks. And mike's so nice, gotta love those shades he had
they were the best!! I want a pair, except they dont matter.
My mom was talking about how Russ just does his own thing and doesnt give a shit about what anyone thinks and how thats' awesome and how Justin is so insecure and how you can tell when he's drunk because of the way he acts. i think she's referring to the noise he makes. lol he has to yell and stuff so he's the centre of attention.
I love when he whispers to me. No matter what he's saying, whispering is good. And he smells so good. god I'm in like with him.
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| So much more to confuse a girl like me |
[22 Jun 2003|10:13am] |
I'm so tired this weekend. I'm majorly behind in my sleep. And its killing me this morning. I almost fell asleep during my movie last night "2 weeks notice" it was kinda funny, but it depressed me at the same time, sad huh?
god my wohle body hurts... maybe I have west nile or something?
What are the symptoms of west nile anyway? weakness or something right? And headaches? I dont have a headache, but I do ache all over and my stomach was all in knots yesterday but that could have been from the drinking the night before. lol
Andrew was telling me everything I did last night, I cant believe I forgot about the thing on the back deck! I made out with justin in the front yard, drew yelled at him and he left, then I went in the backyard and told the peeps on the deck what I had done, and then tara's like "you know your dads' out here right?" and I freaked and ran inside. lol
I had forgotten about that kinda. And I completely dont remember making out with Justin on the back deck either. But Andrew says I did right infront of him becausehe was trying to get into the house.
I really dont know what to make of justin. He doesnt want to be my boyfriend, but he's always over at my house, he wouldnt stop flirting with me at my party, like everytime he walked past me he would either tickle my stomach or poke me or something. And he seemed very concerned about mike and Jeremy being at the party. He kept asking why they were there and who they were even though I dont see why it was any of his concern. Except that I clipped the V.I.P clip on Jeremy and he was like "not my nipple!" because I had clipped it on Justins' nipple ring earlier. Justin also kept saying he didnt want me to be with him because I was clinging to jeremy? though I dont remember ANY clinging onto jeremy. I think Justin might like me alittle bit, but doesnt want to commit to that because ...well I dunno why not. My mom says he must be alittle messed up because of everything his mom went through and then her death. So I agree that he's a player because of that in some way.
And we discussed how megan isnt being a tramp because of her sisters death because she was ALWAYS like that. So there's no excuse. I dont really see any outter problems with megan that werent there before the accident, except her scar of course.
god my back hurts. I should go in the hot tub before work try and work out some kinks, except I hate sitting in the hot tub alone.
Did everyone see my first attempt to get in the hot tub at the party? I wasnt even wasted yet and I almost fell on my ass. I was laughing so hard at myself. it was great, then when I WAS wasted I fell into Jeremy. whoops.
Justin kept telling me to go sleep with mike or jeremy too. I dont get it. Jealous much maybe?
I'm going to go shower or something, later peeps
p.s
I apologize for every cranky email I sent last night and for my last entry, I'm not pathetic for having morals and not being easy.
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[21 Jun 2003|06:02pm] |
Allo.
I would like to report that I was not hung over again today. I dont understand it, I mean yeah I woke up feeling alittle gross and like I was GOING to puke several times before actually feeling awake enough to get up. I put pants on and booted Tiffany several times to wake her like she had asked.
Megan was all over this note Drew left for her, that was crappily written on a paper towel because he left at the crack of dawn to drive Dave's girlfriend home or something? Anyway she was making a big deal about how he left his chain for her, and I find this HILARIOUS because Drew came back after megan had driven home in her pj's and asked where the fuck his chain was. She lies.
She hit on my 15 year old brother last night! He said that Megan and Justin and I were the most drunk out of everyone there last night. Justin was SO loud and apparently so I was? I dunno if I believe mark about that but he was laughing at me for trying to dance and for telling Mike and jeremy to have a safe drive home when they left to early.He said it wasnt that I had said what I said to them, it was the high pitched voice I said it in that made it truly funny.
I made out with Justin because my plans to curropt Jeremy failed miserably when he and Megan started flirting. I'm very annoyed at both of them. Mostly megan because she does it on purpose. And she knew I liked him. She thinks she's gods gift to men and they seem to agree which really bugs me, I'm not sure what bugs me more about it though the fact that the guys agree with her or the fact that she doesnt have any respect for herself or the people around her. And then there's the fact that it makes me jealous that REALLY bugs me!!
What I cant get over was how Justin wouldnt take advantage of me. I was drunk and he wouldnt take advantage of me. I pulled him into the laundry room instead of jeremy and was heavily making out with him and everything, asking him to stay at the party with me and he said he wasnt going too because I was to drunk but that he'd come back and he did come back so at least he keeps promises sometimes. He kept saying "you're sloshed, you need to calm down. Woah tiger" and even though he's right I was unbareably sloshed I was totally aware of every thing I was doing and everything I wanted to be doing and everything. By the end of the night I wanted him to stay because I didnt wanna sleep alone last night, even though I dont see the difference because I passed out the second my head hit my pillow at like 3-4am anyway!!
Tyler called me a tease this morning when he was driving me to work, then lectured me about making out with Justin because he was awake when I was telling you guys (tiff and Shannon) about how justin thought I was going to rape him. My mom wont shut up about Russell. She's like "you're right he's a very nice guy, funny too, gotta love the laugh" I fucking LOVE his laugh I want it on record so I can play it whenever I'm upset about anything. lol
I'm so tired.
And I gotta go BACK to work tomorrow then back to work all fucking week long... *cry*
I hate working.
Maybe I'll just take a week off for no reason.. just do nothing but socialize all fucking week long. I should do that this week.
Anyway I had a blast at my party last night and truly appricate everyone who helped me clean up! Mike and Tyler and Justin I was really surprised when he started to help me! I was like "what are you doing?" I must have asked him that like 10 times last night. or this morning, whatever you want to call it. I counted the beeer bottles this evening, I have 33 beer bottles and then afew bottles that arent returnable I dont think. $3.30 for me tomorrow. score.
Found a sock I think is a guys in the bed that you and russell shared Shannon, I thought it was marks but he made me smell it and said it smelled like beer and smoke, so then I smelled like it and was like "yeah thats not yours.....ew I just smelled someone's sock!!" and threw it away.
god if only you could see how many times I've had to re-type every word in here...you'd wonder why I'm awake.
good night peeps.
Hope you all had fun.
xoxox
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| Party party party!! |
[20 Jun 2003|08:20am] |
Alright so I'm alittle hyper, and dont wanna go to work because of it. I'd MUCH rather be grocery shopping for party supplies and getting all dolled up to look like a complete babe but you know what? I have to go to work and make money, I'm getting a 31 hour pay cheque thing week which is pathetic because normally its a 57 hour or higher cheque but I slacked off BIG last week and its going to hurt my pay cheque big. thats only 236.50 and thats before all the fucking taxes they love to take off. Damnit. But at least I've got a new job lined up already, at murrays' printing in alliston. go me. lol
If I do start working there I'm quitting my job at the express and just working the one job because I hate these 7 workday weeks. And they're wearing me out and boring me to death.
Hey shannon Mr.Keswick is supposed to be coming over tomorrow night after work. I invited him to the party but he was like "highschool kids? no thanks" blah half of them are highschool drop outs there buddy! lol
Alright I better go, Shannon if you're reading this before the end of the day, call russ or go find russ and invite him, his cell isnt on and its driving me nuts because I want him here. and I so need more chicks, for some reason i think Jeremy will be upset that its going to be mostly guys, not that he'll be upset for long if I get him close enough to the laundry room to just tackle him into it. lol
I better clean the laundry room before the party....crap.
later
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| Baby will you come and spend the night? |
[19 Jun 2003|06:18pm] |
I called Tyler to see if he was coming to my party tomorrow night and I got his younger brother (assuming he was younger) he was hitting on me! He's all like "where's Cera Live?" and "Ceras having a party? How olds' Cera?" it was weird.
I called everyone again, left messages everywhere again, and found out Vicki cant come because she's going to Toronto, but I think someone already told me that. Whats in toronto that has her there all the time? Frank?
Megans' doing something with jason and Neveil tonight so she said she'd invite them again since they probably dont remember me inviting them last weekend when they were slightly hung over.lol Last weekend rocked.
my phone wont stop ringing... but it keeps ringing just once. oh its because my dad keeps answering it to quickly. dork.
kenny's on the phone right now, he's horrible, keeps flirting with me, horrible.
anyway nothing to talk about
xoxo
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| tired and oh so red |
[19 Jun 2003|08:11am] |
Alright so yesterday I got incredably burnt on my back from working in the field outfront of the greenhouse in nothing but shorts and a bikini top with no sunscreen because thats how I do things, I basically ASK for sunstroke and other lovely things from the sun, god. My bra is killing my back. its so burnt I wanna cry sometimes.
well maybe not literally but I'm in pain. See I missed the great flirt opertunity and therefore got burnt, has I of taken the chance to ask Jeremy to rub lotion on my back I would be fine and possibly alittle higher in the "she wants me" thoughts in his head, but I didnt ask and I payed for it. Majorly paid for it. ouch.
There were SO many chances for me to be the biggest flirt ever yesterday and I missed like half of them! I'm very annoyed with myself. So even though I was given friday off I'm going in Friday with Ice cream and chocolate syrup for a snack for everyone since usually we have donuts but its hot so I thought ice cream would be that much better....anyway the real reason I'm going in is for more flirt time with Jeremy so that maybe he'll actually show up at my party and I can rob him of his innocence. *evil smirk* ph and Shannon our laundry room doesnt lock, it was the outside door that locks not the one to seperate the laundry room from the hallway. whoops. almost made a big mistake with that!!
Hey there's always the garage? In the backseat of the car or back of my dad's truck though I'd hate to get caught in there because It'd cost me my life!!
Should I take tomorrow off and only work 6 days a week this week or is seven good? Maybe I shouldnt work tomorrow because with my luck I'll go in to see Jeremy and he will have to be working like far away from me and I wont get to flirt with him anyway. just my luck peeps.
Oh my. its almost 8:30 and I'm still a freakin' mess! Not fit for socity!! And neithers my spelling geez. I'll go now. Need to do hair and make-up. Why do I wear make up to the greenhouse? I get so freakin' dirty there there's no point! Especially not today since Jeremy wont be there. But he saw me without make up yesterday so yeah.
ANyway
xoxoxo
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| Kiss me I'm irish |
[18 Jun 2003|08:22pm] |
I so want a t-shirt that says that. If someone gets me one for Xmas or my birthday or because they found it I'll love them forever!!
Anyway I got sent this kiss survey by Shannon so hey I'm bored lets take it!!
1. Have you ever kissed anyone:yes of course
2. How many people have you kissed: not to many but enough I cant remember
3. Name the people you have kissed:Scott(ew),Travis, Scott G, Cameron, Geff, Justin, Ricard, Ed, Tyler, John, Bendel, Shannon, Vicki, Nicki, Megan, Tara
4. Who is the best kisser:Justin, tongue studs rock!
5. Who is the worst kisser: Ed (sorry ed, weak lips)
6. Do you prefer to peck or tongue: alittle bit of both makes things interesting, tiff said it the best, not to much tongue, but no fish lips either.
7. Who do you 'want' to kiss: Jeremy from work
8. Are you a passionate kisser: I consider myself to be
9. How old were you when you had your first french kiss: grade 10, how old's that? 15 or something right?
10. What is the best 'movie' kiss:
11. Where do you like to be touched when a guy or girl kisses you: I like it when guys hold my waist, or my head when they kiss me
12. What is the worst thing a person can do while kissing you:to much tongue, or burp. thats never happened but still ...ew.
13. Do you prefer your eyes open or closed: closed
14. Do you prefer their eyes open or closed: closed
15. Do you like to kiss a lot: yeah I love kissing
16. Do you prefer kisses or hugs: kisses for sure! hugs are evil
17. Do you like your ears and neck to be kissed: I love my neck being kissed, love it.
18. Have you kissed someone with braces before: no.
19. Who is the last person you kissed: Tyler
20. Where do you like to be kissed: everywhere. Except my ears
21. Where (besides your lips) have you been kissed:everywhere except the backs of my knees and armpits. lol
22. How long was your longest kiss:I dont count.
23. Shortest kiss: playing spin the bottle because they were just pecks
24. How often do you kiss? I try to kiss as often as possible
25. What's the longest you've gone without one: not to long actually. not lately anyway, but before....um...2 years
26. Do you think you're a good kisser: I've never had complants.
27. Have you ever kissed someone on a dare: does spin the bottle count? otherwise no.
28. Have you ever regreted a kiss: yes, I regret kissing ed
29. Are you a kissing slut: no.
There now wasnt that peachy fun ladies and gents? No one's online tonight except Japanese bacon, and no one's home tonight so I could go and listen to Sean paul to loudly in the hot tub alone but I dont like the hot tub when I'm alone. I like being with people and making out in the hot tub. I was talking to Jeremy from work today about kinky shit we've done. He's never done anything kinky! Except stuff in the shower. I told him I'd sleep with him. I was being brave today for some reason. I want him badly, I'm going to have him friday night if he shows up at my hot tub party, which he better or I'll be forced to throw him up against a wall in the greenhouse and jump him. lol He's to tall though, I'll need like a step latter to get a kiss from him. lol
itchy foot!!
I cleaned the basement alittle, made room for hanging out, and cleaned off the air hockey table incase people want to play, but I'm not going through the holes with a tooth pick, I'm not THAT bored tonight.
Shannon could you find out if Ed's coming Friday night? I invited justin tonight but I dunno if he'll show or not. But branden's coming and so's Lee I think. so yeah I doubt Ed will want too. Poor Ed. I feel like a bitch...am I?
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[15 Jun 2003|11:16am] |
Alright so today I'm going to my aunts for this big family thing, with fathers day presents and birthday presents because my aunts birthday is tomorrow and my mom's is the 21st. She's a summer baby. lol
I bought these cute cards yesterday for my mom and aunt. My aunts says something about not getting a funny card because at this age your bladder starts to go, and my mom's says something about doing cart wheels and flips anything to keep those boobs from sagging. And my dads' fathers' day card is the sappiest thing you've ever read! But he never gets sap from me so I feel like I owe him. And I got him an instant millionaires scratch card and a bumper sticker that says "I work so hard because millions of people on welfare depend on me." which just suits my dad so well. lol
you guys should see my hair right now. Major natural curl and volume going on this morning. lol I'll take a pic so you CAN see.
there I dunno how to post them, but I'll get Shannon to do that for me, or Tiffany. whoever wants too. lol
And I wanna post pics of prom today. pics everywhere for everyone!
Anyway should go calm down the blonde waves and get out of my snowflake pj's. lol
xoxox later
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| chug chug cera |
[14 Jun 2003|02:26am] |
Alright so as everyone knows last night was prom. A.K.A formal for banting students and I was invited so I went, well I had a blast though I dont have a favourite moment. Maybe when Anthony remembered me and picked me up? lol I got picked up by like 8 guys last night (eight is the number) I dunno why they kept doing that. Especially since I'm like fat now.. ew fat.
My date got mad at me because I was being alittle flirty with everyone after a few drinks. I drank the most I've ever dranken last night. I had a rum and coke when Megan and Shannon got there, some blue cooler thing that tastes like blue freezy with a kick with Andrew, and an entire bottle of peach snops, oh and half a thing of heinken beer. I chugged everything I drank because I'm not to big on the fizzy tastes of some things or the burning of others. Like when I first got my peach snops I had nothing to mix it with so I was just chugging it straight which of course went straight to my head. lol I met SO many new people last night and lots of people I knew when I was in highschool but havent seen since I was there. Like Anthony!! I liked anthony when I was in his class, he thinks I'm a huge kink because I was always quiet in class and he says its the quiet ones that are the kinkiest. lol
I was teasing ed the entire way to formal and his older brother was driving us so it was funny because he kept laughing but pretending not to be listening, and I dont even remember what I said but Ed told me to stop flirting with his brother when we got to the hotel. I was like "what the fuck are you talking about?"
shit going to be late for work.
I gotta go REAL fast since I havent even done my hair yet.
Later
xoxox
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[13 Jun 2003|02:00am] |
Alright so everyone knows that I'm alittle on the wild side when it comes to my hair and my fashions correct?
Well I went and got my hair done for formal about an hour ago. It barely tokk ANY time to do the style but when we got there, there were 3 other chicks getting their hair done. They all got really boring traditional hair styles and then I got this wicked hairstyle thats all messed. Its all flat at the front around my face and then its all like spikey and stuff all around. I'm adding red glitter to it for some colour, and once my make-up is on and my nails are painted red and my black dress with black shoes are on it'll look awesome.
Anyway I'm going to go do my nails now since I gotta do toes and fingers,and all that junk. And I gotta pile on the black eyeshadow to make my eyes all dramatic and blow away the boys. lol My lips not bruised anymore. So thats good. Hickies still there though, but it wont show up under my dress. And I seriously hurt my back when I jumped back away from him in the hot tub, its all bruised and KILLS me to bend over, and hurts me to just fucking walk!!
Anyway gone.
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| Boys suck |
[12 Jun 2003|08:29am] |
Alright so I went to work today and they wanted me to climb up on these wire tables that I'd fall through if I stood in the wrong spot, like if I didnt stand on the part with a pole under it I would definitely fall through. Anyway jeremy (cute rich guy I work with) was all nervous that I'd fall through because he knows I'm a klutz, so he was watching me and giving me tips on how to get up on the tables without falling through which I thought was rather caring for him. He's normally alittle bit of a jerk to anyone who bothers to talk to him. Lately he's been flirting alittle though. Like today I was in charge of answering phone calls, so I had the portable phone slipped onto my back pocket so it wasnt in my way because I kept banging it on by mistake against tables and stuff. Anyway I answered a call but couldnt help the person, so I gave the phone to Jeremy and he helped the customer, and when he was done with the phone he tucked it back into my back pocket, which I think is alittle flirtatious dont you think?
Anyway I tore my jeans at work today, right under my back pocket so I was walking around with half my ass hanging out and didnt even know until 4pm when my mom pointed it out to me. god.
whats wrong with me?! I'm worried about my dat ass and I'm sitting here inhaling chips like they're going out of style. grr I'm SUCH a fucking reject....
Speaking of how I'm a reject, I called Justin tonight (party justin) and invited him over to the hot tub again, Ed knows because I called Ed while I was waiting for Justin and he showed up before ed stopped talking because he just rambled on pointlessly all night. Anyway once again I did stuff with Justin I regret doing with him, but I'm sure I'll end up doing it again if given the chance. My bottom lips bruised...beautiful. He bites. lol *deep hurt sigh*
Anyway tomorrow is the formal. I'm taking the day off from work so I can sleep in and not have bags under my eyes for once, since I'll be wearing alot of black eyeshadow and stuff thats important. I cant wait to wear my red lipstick either. I love red lipstick but its not 'in' to wear it so I never do, Plus I never go anywhere were I can wear any shade of lipstick really. we decided that a black dress with black shoes and bright red lipstick would really look ...classy I guess is the word I want? I'm nervous about going with Ed because he's so excited, though he's alittle mad at me because of the thing with Justin and because I'm staying over night with Andrew Willmott and he's not my date. But apparently I'm sleeping in a bed with a chick instead of Andrew now so its all good, plus Andrews getting me drinks, The drink of choice? Fuzzy Navel of course. lol
I feel like shit, I mean I feel good, but mood wise I feel shitty. And no one has called my cell so I feel like a loser because I thought I'd seem popular but everyone just calls my house looking for me even if my cell's on and everything. geez.
Anyway I'm a mess for prom tomorrow, bruised left arm, scratched right arm, turtle tattoo on ankle that wont come off! Cuts all over my feet from last weekends tim hortons trips, and two hickies on my chest, oh and not to mention the blue lip from the bitter. grrr. He knew I was going to formal too I think thats why he did it. jerk. I hate him but its hard to hate him because I love kissing him, and love that my parents dont like him. lol
Anyway I should go read my cosmo because I want to know all the sex tricks before tomorrow night... joking peeps relaxe.
but I am going to bed.
good night all.
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| Cellular phones......gah |
[12 Jun 2003|08:29am] |
Well ladies and gents after going to the mall last night I finally got my cell phone working. I even got a cute little black case to protect it. If you dont know my cell number its because I havent talked to you yet. lol
Hot tub party at my place next Friday night, if any of you want to come the you can call me. ...yes on the cell. lol
Almost got in a huge fight with my mom last night because she was bugging me and I had a major headache. I turned off the radio in the car so I could have some quiet but apparently radio off means voices louder. Anyway she yelled at me for whinning so much about my phone because I was annoyed that it wasnt working and I took a bit of a tone with her and yeah. things started to get ugly but she backoff before the war began.
Anyway peeps, other then the scarey about of BROKE I am, there's nothing really to discuss. Prom tomorrow night. I'm taking the whole day off work to prepare and go fathers day shopping, so I'm sure I'll be writing in here to many times tomorrow. lol
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| Peanutbutter in the hot tub |
[11 Jun 2003|08:05am] |
Well ladies and gents after going to the mall last night I finally got my cell phone working. I even got a cute little black case to protect it. If you dont know my cell number its because I havent talked to you yet. lol
Hot tub party at my place next Friday night, if any of you want to come the you can call me. ...yes on the cell. lol
Almost got in a huge fight with my mom last night because she was bugging me and I had a major headache. I turned off the radio in the car so I could have some quiet but apparently radio off means voices louder. Anyway she yelled at me for whinning so much about my phone because I was annoyed that it wasnt working and I took a bit of a tone with her and yeah. things started to get ugly but she backoff before the war began.
Anyway peeps, other then the scarey about of BROKE I am, there's nothing really to discuss. Prom tomorrow night. I'm taking the whole day off work to prepare and go fathers day shopping, so I'm sure I'll be writing in here to many times tomorrow. lol
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| Peanutbutter in the hot tub |
[11 Jun 2003|08:05am] |
Arlight so the title has nothing to do with anything except that I had peanut butter on toast for breakfast and its been the title for everything this morning. lol
I was in my hot tub last night in the pouring rain and it was SO awesome to be sitting there not really feeling the rain except the odd drop of cold on my face or ears because the hot water was up to my neck if I sat right. The jets felt so nice on my shoulders last night, I dunno why my backs so sore lately, I havent even been working full days this week!!
Anyway I got a cell phone last night and its not working, piss of shit. so I'm pissed at that, and will be complaining to the company after work today. As for now I'm going to go change for work and make my mostly blonde (now) hair look some what controlled before going to hell, I mean work.
later
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